here i am. me. i am meant to be with someone and in love. my system is customized to love and exist as a couple. i am not one of those single independant types. i am made to love. but love doesn't love me. i live in my own little dream world, dancing away, fantasising. my favorite song when i was little was "dreamlover". when will i find a guy who will stick around and who will make me go crazy over him? not a single one of my relationships have really lasted. or even really developed. what goes wrong? the only people who dont end up hurting me are those whom i dont love. they are the ones who stick around. the ones i love, as in the "great loves" always disappear.

they leave, quietly, or so they think. i jump on them the moment i feel they are even considering leaving. and thats what really strenghtens their resolution to leave. (wait, aren't resolutions supposed to be strong?).

thats what the problem is. why cant i be with a great love?. i long to lose myself in a love filled bliss. to-die-for kind.

but my love doesn't believe in us. or so i think. its over honey, learn to accept it. it was the relationship that never was.